Reasonless. Crying. Heart tells not to think, but she won't agree. She's not so smart nor so sensitive. Quite vulnerable I would say.
She won't even agree with herself and wished she didn't exist at all.
Feelings cannot be ripped away so she takes a while to think. Then, again, wants not to be able to translate, or understand, or whatever.

She does not know. Anything.
Everything.
Nothing.